BY JAN HAAG

POETRY + ESSAYS + MUSIC + TRAVEL + FICTION + TEXTILE ART

INTRODUCTION + HAAG'S BIO






FED UP

11-2-97


O Devayani, there isn't too much to tell about your father
except
that he sometimes wore a tiger's eye --
not only to replace
his one eye removed
at eight-one,

but when you were a kid as well,
gleaming through the forest,
angry, inevitable,
seeking vengeance
for,
you are sure,
he knew not why --

the tiger's eye, the leopard's
and the lutefisk.
He was fed up!
And so were you.
He's dead now.
And so are you.

In the night,
stuffed to the gills,
still the thoughts come,
angry, illiterate,
waiting for the fog of morning,
terrified to think of the clear
blue sky,

and the beauty of the seagull's
bright wings spreading
over the horizon
like a sea,
rich with an invisible harvest.
Caw! Caw! Caw!

They cry.
Caw! Caw! Caw!
You cry
down between the bushes
of the forest,
unafraid to slink along
in reality,

terrified
to visit the limitless
beauty
in thought,
terrified to breathe in the peace
of beauty

in the night.
Sucking the vision into your head,
catalyzes poison in your veins,
terror coursing along your arteries
to your heart,
among the branching, branching, branching
tendrils of your vessels,

sacred,
pumping,
tick-tock heart
"Tiger, tiger, burning bright..."
Fed up.
Fed up.

Like a cricket
rasping
in the night
Fed up.
Fed up.
Fed up.
Too much for breakfast,

too much for dinner,
too much in the night,
eating,
filling up,
repletion,
overflowing.

Fed up.
Fed up.
Fed up.
The birds chirping
in the bush.
Fed up.
And the terror of the clear blue sky,

of flight,
of light from the western horizon
turning the world to flames.
You wouldn't dare be happy,
O Devayani,
you wouldn't dare.

Not under the tiger's eye,
in a world you didn't
create.
No room for vision inside,
but paper, as you know,
can absorb everything
even the jellied

remains of a tiger's eye
terrifyingly
bright in the night
cataracted with the fear of
fog
at dawn.








Copyright © 2000 Jan Haag
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

Jan Haag may be reached via e-mail: jhaag@u.washington.edu




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BY JAN HAAG


POETRY + MUSIC + ESSAYS + TRAVEL + FICTION + TEXTILE ART

INTRODUCTION + HAAG'S BIO



21st CENTURY ART, C.E. - B.C., A Context