BY JAN HAAG

POETRY + ESSAYS + MUSIC + TRAVEL + FICTION + TEXTILE ART

INTRODUCTION + HAAG'S BIO





FROSTY MOURNING

01-30-00

For Virginia Woolf and Michael Cunningham



O Devayani,
looking, with blankness, into the void,
you've been losing weight lately.
Such unbelievable good luck!
but you live, always, just behind
the edge
of terror.

Reading this morning, The Hours,
watching for twinges of the belly,
small dashes of pain, aches,
unusual feelings,
suddenly,
faintly,
you hear static.

A continuation of sounds in the night?
Motors running, mouse rustlings?
Surely not static from a stomach.
Again!

O my God! static in the stomach?
Like a... O, Devayani
you'd forgotten to turn off
the radio the proper way.

No static in the flat, slimming
stomach,
nothingness,
Not even hunger.

There's almost a shame in writing,
in calling it poetry.
Ennui rests in your chest,
like white frost on the lawn.
Seattle's winter with sunshine
is so unutterably beautiful
one must walk in the wind, in the park.

Storms at sea beyond sunshine,
driving the crows and the gulls
to flock in the big empty spaces --
but no! O no... a woman
scattering grains, kernels:
the birds flocking, fluttering
and quarreling.

Probably no storm at sea.
Only in your heart, the turmoil
of ennui, of lassitude,
nothingness.

Age. American life slimming down.
Your life slimming down.
What's the point of writing? Park
walking is the goal.

Invisible static from the stars,
from the constellation called God --
static, making you adhere
like paper bits to a comb,

O Devayani,
looking, with blankness, into the void,
you've been losing weight lately.
You'll soon have to dig nails
into the clouds, grab unto
the winter,
the branches.

Reading this morning, The Hours,
watching for twinges of the belly,
you wonder if a gull might have got you,
or crumbs from a lady's charity.
Age? Invisible static from the stars?
Or continuations
of sounds from the night?








Copyright © 2000 Jan Haag
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

Jan Haag may be reached via e-mail: jhaag@u.washington.edu




THE DEVAYANI POEMS

Entertainment

Etruscan Goddess

Father

Feeding Frenzy

Gifts

India

Interstellar Space, 7-5-97

Lung-gom-pas

Micro Paleontology

Nothing

Point of View, 7-5-97

The Roaring Silence of God, 4-3-95

Roots

Ryoanji

Silence

Solstice, 12-21-97

Steady Drizzle

Two Tomatoes



BY JAN HAAG


POETRY + MUSIC + ESSAYS + TRAVEL + FICTION + TEXTILE ART

INTRODUCTION + HAAG'S BIO



21st CENTURY ART, C.E. - B.C., A Context